Steve had lived with his girlfriend, Julie for several years. They lived in a small apartment but they were happy with their simple life. It was the happiest thing of the day for Steve to see Julie on the bed when he woke up in the morning. They believed that if they worked hard, one day, they could afford a big house. At that time, they would get married and have their cute kids. They deeply believed so.
However, life is always unpredictable. They got a bad car accident. Julie unclipped her seat belt right away and held Steve tightly to protect him from being hit directly. Steve just got some abrasions, but Julie got badly hurt. She couldn’t walk from then on and what’s worse, the doctor said that she couldn’t bear babies afterwards. Her world collapsed when she knew that the picture of being with her love and her lovely kids would never come true. Julie became deeply depressed.
Steve felt sorry for her. He worked harder to support their expense. After the accident, Julie had never gone out. She just stayed home every day and waited for Steve coming back. Steve told her many interesting stories to make her happy, but he failed. Whenever Steve got home, he felt the house was filled with sorrow and depression. Soon, Steve didn’t like to go home any more. He steeped himself in his work and he came back home later and later. Therefore, Julie became insecure and grumpy. She doubted if he cheated on her. They quarreled with each other more and more often, more and more badly.
One day, they started to fight as usual. She yelled at him madly with lots of bad words. “CAN’T YOU JUST SHUT UP?” Steve shouted back. He threw down the clock on the desk, and the air became dead suddenly. Julie was crying. Steve took two glasses of water and asked her to sit down. “I think we need to talk.”
Lots of beautiful memories jumped out of his mind while they were talking. He felt happy at first, but soon he was deep in sorrow. He looked into her eyes and thought, “She is not the girl I love anymore.”
“I love you, Julie.” Steve said. He drank the rest of water, and then he held her hands. “I can’t see you suffering more. Let me help you, okay?”
Julie nodded.
He stood up and got close to her. He choked her more and more tightly. Julie fell down from the chair.
He held her up and put her body in the closet. “I’m sorry, Julie,” he said. He went to take her crutches and put them beside the closet.
He needed to calm down first. He lay on the bed and recalled what just happened. He still couldn’t believe what he had done. It seemed that he was just in a dream. He curled himself and turned to the wall. He found two notebooks beside. He opened one of them and started to read. They were Julie’s diary.
He just realized how much Julie loved him, and he couldn’t help crying loudly. The guilt suddenly covered him.
He sat up and seemed deep in thought. Then he looked as if he just made up his mind. He went to the desk and wrote a long letter.
He hanged himself.